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About Me Member Psychedelic Artist mojo-jojo00010110/Male/Sweden Recent Activity Deviant for 6 Years
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Inside the outside.

Mon Oct 2, 2006, 2:09 PM
There is a feeling inside my head.
Going round and round and round.
Pushing me in every direction,
and I start to doubt.

The choices that I have made.
Are they correct or are they wrong.
Do I have what it takes,
or will I fall?

Nervosity entering my body.
I am starting to become sick.
Vectors of unparallelled emotions,
functions of a broken mind.

I am afraid, that everything I touch, will fail.
Afraid, that the things I have, will be gone.
Afraid, that the dream I am living in, will disappear.
Afraid, that I am no longer me.

  • Mood: Frustrated
  • Listening to: System of a down
  • Reading: Calculus
  • Watching: Crappy lectures
  • Playing: Beatmania IIDX
  • Eating: Noodles
  • Drinking: Water

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  • Current Residence: Home
  • Interests: Insanity
  • Favourite movie: Garden State
  • Favourite band or musician: http://www.last.fm/user/Dj_Mojo/
  • Favourite genre of music: From classic to metal
  • Favourite poet or writer: George Orwell, Neal Stephenson
  • Favourite style of art: Oekaki
  • Operating System: Windows XP Pro
  • MP3 player of choice: Foobar2000
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC, Nintendo DS, Playstation 2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Magatsu Taito
  • Personal Quote: "The shadow of myself, in a shadow of a screwdriver."
  • Tools of the Trade: Logitech G5

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Comments


:iconparallelspaces:
I remember you used to comment on my old account in the year 2004.. it's been 4 years since i've known you on here, can you believe it? :D haha

take care
:iconmojo-jojo:
It is kinda hard to believe sometimes, and I find it kinda sad at the same time. Years later, but I feel like I am at the same exact spot as back then. Guess I just need to start changing things.

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One of the most frightening things about your true nerd, for many people, is not that he's socially inept - because everybody's been there - but rather his complete lack of embarrassment about it.
:iconbrokenaoshi:
You play IIDX?! I love you!!

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I'VE GOT A BIKE YOU CAN RIDE IT IF YOU LIKE IT
:iconmojo-jojo:
I would indeed love to state the fact that I am all cool, playing Beatmania IIDX at home, flexing my muscles to an invisble crowd of die hard fans. But as always, truth will come forward eventually. A long time ago, I sure did play Beatmania IIDX, and in my honest opinion, I was fairly good. But one day I stopped playing, and even how much I forced, I couldn't manage to pick up the pace again.

Slowly, my skills in playinf IIDX faded away, not like I wanted them to, but it still happened. Not once but twice did I try to start playing again, but it wasn't fun anymore.

I guess I should have been borned in Japan, and not Sweden after all.

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One of the most frightening things about your true nerd, for many people, is not that he's socially inept - because everybody's been there - but rather his complete lack of embarrassment about it.
:iconbrokenaoshi:
;__; How... how awful. * clings to beatmania controller * I'll never stop... never. >__<

It's too bad you don't find it fun anymore D: I'm not very good at all, but I still like it.

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I'VE GOT A BIKE YOU CAN RIDE IT IF YOU LIKE IT
:iconmojo-jojo:
As long as its fun, the will to continue is there to serve you. I think, when analyzing my past, that I played it to much. We are talking hours and hours per day, and getting better wasn' that hard.

I had been playing games like Stepmania and O2Jam for years, so I got the hang of it quite fast. You start to climb those hills, keeping you from getting better and better, and at the beginning it was quite fun.

I remember beating One More Lovely difficulty 9 in Happy Sky, and gosh, what a thrill. Even though it may be an easy nine, it still rocked my world.

But then I stopped getting better. At one point, it felt like I became worse. Hate myself for not being able to cope with anything, as soon as it starts to become harder.

Damn you me, damn you.

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One of the most frightening things about your true nerd, for many people, is not that he's socially inept - because everybody's been there - but rather his complete lack of embarrassment about it.
:iconbrokenaoshi:
Aww ;-; * hugs * I only get to play once or twice a week, I can't quite do 7s yet. But I've been playing for six months or so~ StepMania no longer works on my computer, but I'm still rather good at it for someone who only plays with one hand. I don't play IIDX with two hands either. My friends always make fun of me...

Happy Sky was the first IIDX I played *-* It's so pretty...

Even though you no longer play, it's still nice to know that you have... I like discovering people with good tastes :3

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I'VE GOT A BIKE YOU CAN RIDE IT IF YOU LIKE IT
:iconsame-to-you:
Thanks for watching me. Promise to disappoint you as soon as I know you better.:giggle:
:iconlovewitches:
Nice gallery :D

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Plz check out my gallery :gallery:[link]

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